Back From the Docs

I went in today for a follow-up ultrasound and to speak with the genetic counselers. I kind of feel like I left with more questions than answers. They said the amnio was normal, so I guess that is good news (I think), and they said that it hasn't gotten any worse, so I guess that is good news too. They did say that the MRI showed a brain bleed, and that it could of formed a clot that caused the ventricles to become blocked. They also said the ventricles were't formed correctly, they then went on to say that it might have been an antibody thing in my blood that wasn't compatible with Josh's blood that could of caused an abnormality. They sent me down to the lab to get blood drawn, then if something comes up they'll have Josh go in to check his blood. I guess the only purpose of this is if we plan to have more children, there could be a risk of this happening again. I have to get another ultrasound in two weeks, and meet with the neurologist, and they said he should have a better answer as to long term effects, and what to expect. He said it's a broad spectrum of outcomes. I then proceeded to draw a complete blank when asked if I had any questions. I am going to try to compose a list of things I want to ask, so that way when I go I won't forget anything important I think needs to be addressed. I got another picture of her profile, and she weighs 2 pounds 15 ounces, so she's growing good, she also is taking practice breaths, it was pretty cool to watch. Since I am still slightly confused, I don't feel any better or worse, I am kind of in the same position I was before I went in, and now another two weeks of this torturous waiting. I am just trying not to think about it and keep my mind occupied with other things. I have to just pretty much take this as a one day at a time thing, hope for the best, and focus on any good news I get, and hopefully that will ge tme through.