9 Year Anniversary!

I have a blog post about Lilah I will be posting in a few days, I just wanted to add some pictures before I posted it, but in the meantime I wanted to write about the past 9 years I have spent with my amazing husband. I met Josh at a time when my life was going nowhere. I was in and out of trouble, I had no goals or ambition, I wasn't being a proper mother to my oldest daughter Brittany. He had been a good friend to me in the previous 3 years before we started dating, but I saw him as no more then that. I always admired him as a father to his son Tyler because Brits dad could of cared less, anad was in and out of jail. I thought to myself how refreshing that a young kid can step up and be a dad, when so many adults out there can't. Josh was like a breathe of fresh air that came blowing into my life when I felt like I was suffocating. Pretty much right off the bat I knew there was something different about him, that he actually cared. I had been in horrible,abusive relationships all of my teenage years, and was so used to being used that I was in shock that someone was treating me so well. Almost right from the beginnaing he told me that he was going to take care of me and would always be here for me. He told me that he could tell that I was a scared little girl, and that he would help me grow into a mature, responsible adult. He has gone above and beyond his promise, never once breaking it and I feel like there is no way I could repay what he has done. I honestly can say I don't know where I would be without him, but I can guarantee my life would be nothing like it is now. Our relationship has without a doubt been pushed to it's limits. We have been through hell and back, but have always managed to come out ok, with our relationship intact. There have been times where I even doubted we could make it, and there have been times I have pushed him away, thinking that I didn't deserve happiness and love. I am so glad he stuck it out with me and didn't give up on me. He has given me the most amazing family, his family he had before me, and our family together. Lilah came at a time when our love wasn't as strong as it had been in the past, and she has just brought so much joy and happiness to our lives. I believe she was sent here for a reason and I have a feeling many people's lifes are going to be enriched from knowing her. I just want to say to him that you are an angel to me, someone that has saved me and guided me through the darkest points in my life. I love you...

10 years ago...